too little too late - jojo

Come with me, stay the night
You say the words but boy it don't feel right
What do you expect me to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You take my hand, and you say you've changed
But boy you know your beggin don't fool me
Because to you it's just a game

So let me on down
Cause time has made me strong
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone
And you know

It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

I was young and in love
I gave you everything but it wasn't enough
And now you wanna communicate
Go find someone else
In lettin you go, I'm lovin myself
You gotta problem
But don't come askin me for help
Cause ya know

It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

I can love with all of my heart baby
I know I have so much to give (I have so much to give)
With a player like you, I don't have a prayer
That's the way to live, yeah oh

It's just too little, too late
Yeah

It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

lagu favorit gw. maknyuss. hahahaha. :)

syookkk..

hari ini, pengumuman snmptn. sbnrnya sii kemaren uda bisa dibuka, dan pas dibuka, udah biasa lha, ditolak lagi. MAAF! ANDA TIDAK TERCANTUM DALAM NAMA YANG LULUS. hahahahhaha. udah kebal gw ditolak mulu ama PTN. tapi bukan itu yang bikin gw syok.

tadi pagi sii dhea kuprett kambing bauu buaya darat itu sms gw, minta web buat liat hasil snmptn. gw bls. dan dibls lg "GW DITERIMA DI UNPAD"

ANYYIIINNGGG......................................
MESTI GW SATU DAERAH LAGI AMA DIAA???!!!!!!!! OHHH GOOODDD......................... GAMAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUU.......!!!!!!!!

krn gw ga pcaya, gw ngecek sendiri, gw minta no ujiannya, gw liat, ternyata bnr. gw liat kode jurusannya admin negara unpad. kamprettttt! bete mampus!

gw tauu emg dia pinter bgtt (saking pinternya sampe gampang bangett nipu gw) tapi gw ga nyangka aja. kmrn pas penmaba dia dpt sas ing unj, gw alhamdulillah. eh trus dia blg dilepas. katanya mauu unpad aja. gembell. gw pikir ga bkalan dpt. eh tnyata dapett. nyebelinn.

moga2 aja tuu orang stan dapet, jadi kan kga jadi sedaerah lg. amiien.

ahhh...

HEAL THE WORLD - M.J

There's A Place In
Your Heart
And I Know That It Is Love
And This Place Could
Be Much
Brighter Than Tomorrow
And If You Really Try
You'll Find There's No Need
To Cry
In This Place You'll Feel
There's No Hurt Or Sorrow

There Are Ways
To Get There
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Little Space
Make A Better Place...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

If You Want To Know Why
There's A Love That
Cannot Lie
Love Is Strong
It Only Cares For
Joyful Giving
If We Try
We Shall See
In This Bliss
We Cannot Feel
Fear Or Dread
We Stop Existing And
Start Living

Then It Feels That Always
Love's Enough For
Us Growing
So Make A Better World
Make A Better World...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

And The Dream We Were
Conceived In
Will Reveal A Joyful Face
And The World We
Once Believed In
Will Shine Again In Grace
Then Why Do We Keep
Strangling Life
Wound This Earth
Crucify Its Soul
Though It's Plain To See
This World Is Heavenly
Be God's Glow

We Could Fly So High
Let Our Spirits Never Die
In My Heart
I Feel You Are All
My Brothers
Create A World With
No Fear
Together We'll Cry
Happy Tears
See The Nations Turn
Their Swords
Into Plowshares

We Could Really Get There
If You Cared Enough
For The Living
Make A Little Space
To Make A Better Place...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me

NOW

hanya bisa nangis sekarang. yehh..
PLEASE HELP ME GOD! I NEED YOU!
gw emg ga berguna, cuma bisa menyusahkan semua orang yg ada di hidup gw, gw cuma tabu. ksiian yaa gw. cuma kyk tai.
cape yaa ga punya siapasiapa, cape yaa kalo harus sendiri.
diam..
1kata yg emg cuma bs lakuin sekarang, sampai nanti dan mungkin selamanya. mengendapkan segalanya. oo hell yeahh.
yasudalahh..

WHEN YOU BELIEVE

Many nights we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we knew we could

[Chorus:]
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seemed like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here
My heart's so full, I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

[Chorus]

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fears
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see your way clear through the rain
A small, but still, resilient voice
Says help is very near

BT

anjritt. sumpah bete bangett gw!!!!!!!!!
seharusnya jam segini gw udah jalan ke blitz GI nih. gara2 SII TERORIS SIALAN itu gw jadi gabole kmana2!!!!!!!!!!!!!
pagi ini, jam 11 gw dapet tiket nonton harpot di blitz megaplex GI bareng gadis. gw uda seneng2 nonton harpot gausa pake ngantri plus gausa bayar pula. TAPI INI GAJADI PERGI, GABOLE GARA2 KMRN ADA BOM. AHHH NGEFETT..!!!!!!!
TAEK.
BETE BANGETT GW. ANYINGGG..!!!!!!!!!!!

nulis nulis nulis

HHHMMMMMMMMMMMMMM...............................
ih ngeselin lelaki yang satu itu, dasar centil. hahahahahhahaha.
aduu..mesti yaa ntar gw 1 kuliah sama dia? jadi maless... grr.
hahahahahaaha.

CRY - RIHANNA

[verse one]
im not the type to get heart broken
im not the type to get upset and cry
cause i never leave my heart open
it never hurts me to say goodbye
relationships dont get deep to me
never got that whole in love thing
and someone can say they love me truly
but at the time it didn't mean a thing

[bridge]
my mind is gone
im spinnin round
and deep inside
my tears ill drown
im losin grip
whats happenin
i strayed from love
this is how i feel

[chorus]
this time was different
felt like i was just a victim
and it cut my like a knife
when you walked out of my life
now im this condition
and ive got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart
but no matter what youll never see me cry

[verse two]
did it happen when we first kissed
cause its hurtin me to let it go
maybe cause we spent so much time
and i know its no more
i should have never let you hold me baby
maybe why im sad to see us part
i didn't give it to you on purpose
cant figure out how you stole my heart

[bridge]
my mind is gone
im spinnin round
and deep inside
my tears ill drown
im losin grip
whats happenin
i strayed from love
this is how i feel

[chorus]
this time was different
felt like i was just a victim
and it cut my like a knife
when you walked out of my life
now im this condition
and ive got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart
but no matter what youll never see me cry

[verse three]
how did i get here with you ill never know
never meant to let it get so personal
and after all i tried to do
to stay away from lovin you
im broken hearted i cant let you know
and i wont let it show
you wont see me cry

[bridge]
my mind is gone
im spinnin round
and deep inside
my tears ill drown
im losin grip
whats happenin
i strayed from love
this is how i feel

[chorus]
this time was different
felt like i was just a victim
and it cut my like a knife
when you walked out of my life
now im this condition
and ive got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart
but no matter what youll never see me cry

[bridge]
my mind is gone
im spinnin round
and deep inside
my tears ill drown
im losin grip
whats happenin
i strayed from love
this is how i feel

[chorus]
this time was different
felt like i was just a victim
and it cut my like a knife
when you walked out of my life
[youll never see me cry]
now im this condition
and ive got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart
but no matter what youll never see me cry
all my life

lagi doyan ama nii lagu. bagus sih. hehhe

mau cerita..

hari ini keskolah, legalisir rapot ijazah n skhun. pas nyampe tnyata pas lg mos br mulai. perasaan br kmrn gw ngerasain jd siswi smp yg lg di mos, skrg uda alumni sma. hha.

abis itu nemenin atull ke stis buat daftar. eh ktemu erna, citra, farra ama dias. lmyn lama jg. rame tnyata. tdnya mau nyoba msk situ, tp ga ah. buang2 duit pendaftaran. uda di bandung jg thie, hhaha.

pulang dr situ gw ke cmpakaputih, trs ke metropole ama omick buat nntn tarix jabrix 2. kocak tp mgkn agak lama n agak ribet. tp overall, good. apalagi penuh dgn arti persahabatan. oh God!

rasanya pengen nangis pas dibioskop td. tp ditahan2. hhehe. bisa gila nih gw lama2. bnr dah. hufft*

gw kangen idup gw yg dulu. yg skrg ga ada. grr..

yaa Allah swt..
kuatkan hati ini yaa Allah swt. amiien.

kapan ini semua selesai? ga ada mslh n baik2 aja? hufft*

bharap yg tbaik buat gw dan mereka semua. wlopun paiittt bgtt buat gw.
BISMILLAH..

ehem..

pagi ini mau ke bank bca, transfer. trs abs itu ke skola buat legalisir rapot dll.

gw ganti foto fb nih. fotonya keren. gw sendiri di ruang yg besar. u know what i mean lha. hhahaha.

belajar buat idup sendiri thie. tanpa mreka mreka yg biasa nya ada. mm..susah nih kyknya. hhaha.

ke bdg tgl 27 minta tmnin sapa yaa? takut mba lia gbs. aduh. masa sendirian gw ksono? wah wah wah..

i want he back in my life.

the right answer?

kemaren malem abis curhat2an sm japie. gw cerita semua mslh gw yg sm ank2. gw pikir jati juga bkal blg gw lebay dsb krn ini. tp nyatanya ga. ternyata jp juga ngerasain apa yg gw rasain. gw juga kaget. gw pikir kn kalo laki2 ama mslh ginian pasti ga tlalu pduli, tp tnyata jp juga ngerasain kesepian kyk gw.

kalo laki2 yg pke logika aja bs ngerasain kyk gn, gmn gw cewe yg pke perasaan? beeehh..

ptanyaan yg sama jg tnyata keluar dr pikiran gw n jp. apa bener kita ini sahabat? apa sekumpulan org yg dket krn situasi?

aneh yaa. apa jwbnnya? apa?

entah yaa. yasuda lha.

SELAMAT PAGI SEMUAA... :)

pagiii........ ;9
hari ini bersih2in sepatu2 gw, dan ternyata sepatu gw buanyaak yaa.. ga nyangka, hhaha. sekalian dipilahpilah mana yg harus dibuang, mana yg harus dibawa buat kosan :)

ga nyangka yaa. cepet bgtt waktu berjalan. tauu2 uda kuliah aja. bkal rindu skolahan nih! beserta isi2nya yg AMAZING. hhihi. lov it much.

kmrn ngirim data volunteer buat jakjazz tauun ini, trs ada ptanyaan yg mengharuskan explain my skill 4 those event. jwbnya juga pke bing. waa..uda tauu kalo dsuru writing, tuu bkal lbh jelek drpd ngomong. waa..gatauu dah ntar tuu panitia kalo baca pada ketawa2 x yaa. hhahahaha. gatauu tuu bnr apa ga. hhahahaha *malu*

lgan soulnation thun lahirnya msh 90. pdhl kn gw 91 tp udah 18taun yee.. ah bete. javajazz volunteernya sih blm dibuka, tp tauu deh nanti bs apa ga.

oiia, setelah kuliah di bandung nanti, gw bkal gbs dtg event2 di jkt yg biasanya gw dtg trus nih. soulnation akhir oktober, entah bs apa ga. pngen beli tiket online nya biar jauh lbh murah tp kn gw gatauu tuh bs apa ga gw pulang ke jkt. gpmb juga kn di jakarta, blm tauu kpn. kyknya akhir tauun. HUAA...gw pngen msk madah bahana UI. tp kyknya gbs :( gw kn bukan anak UI. di bandung ada marching band gt ga yaa?? huuh. keg ekskul di im telkom ada ga yaa? gw kn pngen ikut2an. mau eksis, hhi ;9

deg2an nih yg mau idup sendiri di kos2an. mana gw penyakitan, suka telat bangun. huuh. HARUS BISA COYY! AYEEY!

td pagi gw buka fb lwt web, ANEH. kyk buka di komp. ada application sgala, take my quiz, grafiti, chat, dll. tp LEMOTT bgtt. jdnya skrg buka lwt opera mini deh. mudah2an aja lancar. biasa fb mulu tiap hari. hhahahahaha.

buat nginep ruma risma bw apaan aja yaa?? mm.. kn mau seru2an walopun si batull kga ngikut. payah dah ah. tp harus dimaklumi. lov u muah muah lha. hhihihi.

HOAHHMMMM..
msii ngantuk gr2 tdur pagi bangun pagi. hhahahaha. mana nii radang kga ilang2, sariawan juga uda 3minggu kga ilang2. doyang amatt dah ahh ama gw. cinta kalo kata stepi, hha. ckck...

sudalha. hope today will be better than yesterday, it must!

:)

pengen nulis.

gatauu knp nih, lg doyan2nya nulis disini. hha.
bsk gw bkal ngelakuin sesuatu. yg entah bakal lbh buruk atau lbh baik. tp pasti itu yg terbaik. amiien :)
malam ini. lagi2 gw dihub2in sm mslh sinta n dhea. "PLISS DEH LO BERDUA. GABISA APA YAA GA BAWA2 GW?! KANGEN BGTT SIH AMA GW! GELAA AJA LOH GUE LAGI GUE LAGI. DOYAN AMATT! GA CEWE GA COWO SAMA AJA, NYUSAHIN GUE! HHAHAHAHA. KENA KUTUK NTAR. HHIHIHIHIIHIHI *ktawa nenek sihir*"

ga sabar 100709. bkal perpisahan. sedihnya :'(

aduu..pulsa gw abis dah nih kalo ol fb hrs di hp molo. grr.. lgan knp sii komputer gue??

besok mabica hari terakhir. gw pngen dateng deh. tapi ga ada tmnnya. huuh*

bsk gjd ke prj buat nntn maliq, krn maliq tampilnya jam 10mlm. gw kburu masuk angin dah. mana jauuh pula tempatnya. nii lg javajazz pke ikutan pindah ke kemayoran, aduu.. kan jauuhhhh tau.

RISNA ANANDA PUTRI IN AN OPEN A RELATIONSHIP.. hhahahaha :)

REFLECTION :')

Look at me,
You may think you see who I really am
but you'll never know me
everyday, its as if i play a part

Now i see, if I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

chorus:
Who is that girl I see,
Staring straight back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside.

verse 2:
I am now,
in a world where I have to hide my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow I will show the world,
whats inside my heart,
and be loved for who I am.

chorus:
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight back at me.
Why is my reflection someone I dont know,
must I pretend that i'm,
someone else for all time,
when will my reflection show who I am inside.

bridge:
There's a heart that must be free to fly,
That burns with the need to know the reason why.

verse3:
Why must we all conceal,
what we think,
how we feel.
Must there be a secret me i'm forced to hide.
I won't pretend that i'm,
someone else for all time.
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside.
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside.

One Step At A time

da da da um da da
da da da ba um da da
da da da um da da
da da da ba um da da

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

HOOK
You wanna show the world but no one knows yours name yet
You wonder when and where and how you're going to make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face and the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you getting all kinda impatient
Waiting, we live and we learn

CHORUS
To take one step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly, or falling in love
It's gonna happen when it's supposed to happen
And we find the reasons why
One step at a time

da da da um da da
da da da ba um da da
da da da um da da
da da da ba um da da

You believe, and you doubt
You're confused, and got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

HOOK
You wanna show the world but no one knows yours name yet
You wonder when and where and how you're going to make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face and the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you getting all kinda impatient
Waiting, we live and we learn

CHORUS
To take one step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly, or falling in love
It's gonna happen when it's supposed to happen
And we find the reasons why
One step at a time

When you can't wait any longer (you can't wait)
But there's no end in time (when you need to find the strength)
It's your faith that makes you stronger (the only way we get there)
The only way we get there
Is one step at a time

To take one step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly, or falling in love (Falling in love)
It's gonna happen when it's supposed to happen
And we find the reasons why
One step at a time

One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly, or falling in love (Falling in love)
It's gonna happen when it's supposed to happen
And we find the reasons why
One step at a time

LIHATLAH LEBIH DEKAT

Hatiku sedih
Hatiku Gundah
Tak ingin pergi berpisah

Hatiku bertanya
Hatiku curiga
Mungkinkah kutemui kebahagiaan seperti disini
Sahabat yang selalu ada dalam suka dan duka

Tempat yang nyaman kala ku terjaga
dalam tidurku yang lelap

Janganlah sedih, janganlah resah
Jangan terlalu cepat berprasangka
Janganlah gundah, janganlah resah
Lihat segalanya lebih dekat
Dan kau bisa menilai lebih bijaksana

Mengapa bintang bersinar
Mengapa air mengalir
Mengapa dunia berputar
Lihat segalanya lebih dekat
Dan kau akan mengerti


LOV YOU MY BESTIES. :')

el oo vi ii a.k.a LOVE

MMMMMMMMMMMMM................
bingung. hahhahahaha. pengen nulis di blog, tapi bingung mauu nulis apa. lagi gabisa ngerasain apa2 nih. hhihihi.

mungkin yang pertama berdoa dulu. semoga masalah keluarga besar ku ini cepat selesai. ga ada yang rusak atau berpisah satupun karena itu adalah hal yang di MURKAI oleh ALLAH SWT. naudzubillahi min dzalik. jangan sampe. amiien yaa Allah swt. :)

uda 4 hari ini gw dengerin lagu JACKO yang U'RE NOT ALONE terus2an. ampe apal dah. dalem buat gw. hhihihi. semoga aja gw bener2 ga ALONE. :')

judul nya ga nyambung mungkin sm isinya, tapi secara ga langsung nyambung. semuanya pasti karena CINTA. hahahaha. *error nih gw. ga jelas yang diomongin apa.*

jadi inget seseorang yang mungkin nasibnya ga jauh beda sama gw, tapi mungkin jauh lebih menyedihkan. tapi dia bisa bertahan sama semua itu. gw juga harus bisa. harus lha. HARUS!!!!! jangan mauu kalah cuma gara2 masalah yang kayak gitu2.

akhir bulan juli ini ke bandung, ke kampus lebih tepatnya*jiaahh* hahahaha. ngurusin berkas2 yang blm selesai kayak ijazah dll. mungkin akhir juli itu cuma bolakbalik doang. awal agustus, yang pastinya sblm tanggal 14agustus gw uda harus ke kos2an. beres2 kosan. waduhh...gw bakal idup sendiri di kota yang blm gw kenal bgtt. hhihi. apalagi bulan PUASA gw sendiri. waawawawaaa.... bnr2 harus belajar nih. alamat ga sahur kalo lupa nih. aduhh.. hhehehe.

dari kemaren gw buka facebook di komputer ama laptop tapi ga ada yang bnr2. lemotttt bgttttttttt....... parah. cepetan lewat hp. ah bete. pulsa terkuras abis nih, ahhh.

mmmmm...................
gw ama risma lagi mau membuka hati. hahahha. jiah ilah kata2nya ga nahan dah. kita udah sama2 lepas dari 'our past' hhe. sekarang waktunya buka buat orang yang lbh membutuhkan, hahahahahha. tapi sii ga langsung. pelan2. hati gw masih terlalu sesak buat Allah swt, keluarga, sahabat dan teman2. jadi buat masalah itu, let it flow aja. bakal dateng ko ntar yang bae, amiien. hehe

semalem gw nonton acara nya helmy yahya yang 'masihkah kau mencintaiku?' yang di tayangin di RCTI mlm2. ke2x nya gw nonton tuu acara. yang pertama lupa kapan. seru sih. tapi dari yang gw tonton selama 2x itu gw nangkep, ko cowo a.k.a suami (status nya) semena2 amat yaa sama cewe a.k.a istrinya??? ninggalin rumah tangga yang belasan taun dibina cuma buat WIL yang ga jelas. kasiian yaa. mungkin gw bakal ngereview sedikit acara yang gw tonton itu.


WAKTU NONTON PERTAMA KALI
jadi masalahnya gini. cewe sm cowo dijodohin sm orang tua mereka masing2 terus nikah. istrinya CANTIK, modis, manis, bnr2 wanita yang jaman sekarang diliat kayak ibu2 manajer yahudd. abis nikah ternyata suaminya punya WIL (wanita idaman lain) yang ga lain temennya sendiri. saat istrinya tauu, istrinya nyamperin sii WIL itu, bukan buat di labrak atau di marahin atau di interogasi, tapi buat DITANYA. ditanya apa yang kelebihan dari WIL itu sampe suaminya bisa mengidamkan wanita lain. gile coyy. hebatt bangett. salut. istrinya selalu mauu berubah buat jadi apa yang suaminya mau. istrinya bertahan terus. hebat bgtt deh.
awalnya suaminya gamauu ngaku kalo punya WIL. pas WIL nya ditunjukin, baru ngaku deh. waa.... ga bener. woooo........
pas terkahirnya, sii suaminya dsuruh milih. mauu WIL itu apa mau kembali ke istrinya? terus dengan SEMENAMENANYA dia milih WIL itu *emg kamprett bett dah* istrinya syokk. ya iyalha. tapi yang malu2in adalah... ternyata WIL nya ga cinta ama si suami itu. bahkan WIL itu mauu segera menikah dengan laki2 pujaan hatinya. MAMFUSS. hahahahahahahahahahaha. emang enak lo. tapi ngeselinnya, sii suami tiba2 minta maaf sm istrinya minta balikan, minta maaf dll lha. biar bisa kembali jadi satu. istrinya nerima. yaa namanya perempuan, mau disakitin kayak apa juga kalo yang namanya cinta udah susah dah. kesel juga sii liatnya. tuu cowo ko semena2 amatt yaa. ga dapet yang dipengen, dia minta balik sm yang udah dia buang. kan songong. WOOO......... hahahahahahha.
mungkin seharusnya para lelaki bisa belajar dari yang kayak gitu. harus menghargai perempuan bagaimanapun dia. setia banget dah. ckckck...

semoga ini pengalaman yang bisa diambil hikmahnya. dan ga ada lagi cerita kayak gini di kehidupan siapapun apalagi kehidupan saya pribadi, amiien yaa robbal alamin. :)

pengen ngelanjutin yang cerita semalem yang gw tonton tapi gw ngantuk nih. tidur dulu ahh. nanti baru lanjutin lagi. gampanglha. hihihihi.

"HAVE A NICE DAY ALL. :')"

YOU ARE NOT ALONE by JACKO

Another day has gone Im still all alone
how could this be when your not hear with me
You never said good bye
someone tell me why
why did you have to go
and leave my world so cold
everyday I sit and ask myself
how did I slip away
somthing whispers In my ear
and says

(CHORUS)

that you are not alone
for I am hear with you
though your far away
I am hear to stay
you are not alone
for I am hear with you
though were far apart
your always In my heart
but you are not alone
(alone) 3X

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
asking me to come
and hold you In my arms
I can hear your prays
your burdens I won't dare
but first I need your hand
then forever can begin
everyday I sit and ask myself
how did I slip away
but sumthing whispers In my ear and says

(CHORUS)

that you are not alone
for I am hear with you
though your far away
I am here to stay
for you are not alone
for I am hear with you
though were far apart
your always In my heart
for you are not alone....

Oh whisper three words
and I'll come running
and I
and girl you kno that I'll be there
I'll be there...

(CHORUS)

but you are not alone
for I am hear with you
though your far away
I am hear to stay
but you are not alone
for I am hear with you
though were far apart
your always In my heart
for you are not alone (you are not alone)
for I am hear with you (I am hear with you)
though your far away (though your far away)
(you and me)
I am hear to stay
you are not alone (you are always in my heart)
for I am here with you
though were far apart
your always In my heart
for you are not alone...(not alone)

you are not alone
you are not alone
say It again
you are not alone
you are not alone
not alone not alone
If you reach out for me girl
In the morning
In the evening
not alone not alone
you and me not alone
together together
not not being alone
not not being alone


AMIIEN YAA ALLAH SWT. :')

ga stabil

hari ini hari ke2 dapet. hari ini juga abis nyontrengg, tapi tinta nya udah luntur aja. payah dah ahh. haha.
hari ini juga gw cengeng bangett. HUUUAAAAAAAAAAA............... udah pengen nangis lagi, tapi TAHAN. nyesek senyeseknyeseknya yang paling nyesek diantara yang nyesek nyesek. ooh GOD. please help me. don't know what to do. tempat curhat gw sekarang ini cuma disini. rasanya kosong, hampa, sepi, sendiri. semuanya yang biasanya ada mungkin sekarang udah ga ada. sepi bgtt. ga cuma masalah sm temen, sm keluarga juga ada, ama yang lain2 juga ada. emg yang namanya masalah ga akan pernah berhenti datang ke kehidupan kita, sepintar2nya kita aja buat nge handle nya. tapi......gw blm bs nge handle itu semua dengan baik malah mungkin tambah berantakan.
nangis lagi deh. seharian ini dengerin lagunya michael jackson yang YOU ARE NOT ALONE. jeebbbb! gmn gitu. dalem. dengan lagu itu, bisa bikin gw sedikit besar hati supaya gw ga ngerasa sendiri. tapi nyatanya ga ada gunanya juga. tetep aja. yaa ALLAH SWT, hamba MU ini hanya bisa meminta kepadaMU agar semua ini baik2 saja. walopun sebenernya udah terlambat.
apa yang gw minta itu salah yaa? apa gw salah minta sedikit diperhatiin?
i lost them, forever maybe. :'(
kenapa semuanya jadi begini? apa emg gw harus selalu berlindung di keceriaan ini? oh DAAAMMMMMMMMIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTT...........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
rasanya pengen TIDUR. untuk waktu yang ga sebentar. hufft.

perang batin

baru sampe rumah. semalem abis nonton ice age 3 di lapis ampe jam 11. ngantuk. hhaha. mana bawa motor pas pulang. untung ngantuk nya bs gw tahan. hhihi. (yg jd penumpang gw untung gatau, hhaha)
hari ini dapet. kram perut. kyk biasa tiap bulan, nyeri bgtt euyy! tp gw gbole mkirin sakitnya, ntar tmbh sakit. jd mending ngeblog aje, hhahaha.
kan gw blg mau ngelanjutin, nii skrg mau gw lanjutin.
sama kyk judulnya, gw lg perang batin. sbnrnya dr lama, lama bgtt.. namanya jg cewe, pasti antara logika sm perasaan kurang klop. uda gt dtambah ego dan gengsi. lengkaplah sudah. hhaha.
di satu sisi gw muak bgtt sm posisi gw diantara mereka, di sisi lain gw sayang sayang sayang sayang sayang sayang bgtt bgtt. gmn sii rasanya sayang saat kita pnh merasakan kehilangan sblmnya? pasti lbh syg syg dr sblm kehilangan. yaa gw ngerasain itu.
kebegoan yg gw lakuin waktu gw khilangan mereka gr2 cowo. tp gw khilangan mreka, mreka ttp sama2. enak kn. ga mesti sendiri. gw yg ngelakuin aja sendiri, lbh lbh ga enak.
pas gw sadar kesalahan gw, yaa gw takut. takut bgt buat ngerasain kehilangan lg. apalagi mereka.
semakin ksini, gw harus tmbh ngerti, mesti kudu wajib. saat harus sibuk ngurusin kegiatan msg2, ini itu dll. tp apa sesibuk itukah sampe harus bnr bnr ga ada waktu buat bls sms ato ngobrol? kalo diblg gw sibuk, mgkn gw lbh sibuk. apalagi pelajaran gw yg lbh susah. tp apa sii yg ga buat mreka? pas minta ditelfon, gw telfon. di sms, pasti gw bls wlopun kdg gw yg sms duluan. diajak jalan, ayo ayo aja wlopun lg ga punya duit ato lg sibuk2nya gw blajar ato dilarang ortu, gw bela2in. tp gw ga mau ngm. demi siapa? demi mereka. mereka yg gw syg. mereka yg gw gamau kehilangan lg.
tp semakin ksini gw makin ga ngerti. ilang. kyk ga ada lg. mgkn gw byk nyimpen sakit hati gw dr dulu. tp gw tahan, gw simpen, gw yakinin biar sakit hati gw ilang krn mreka yg gw syg. gw ngelakuin kesalahan, tp knp gw sbegitunya dibenci? sbegitunya dimarahin? sbegitunya ditinggal? secara gw pribadi, kalo ada yg salah gw ga ninggalin, gw ga marah, gw ga benci. gw slalu nyupport. gw selalu ada kapanpun. mau gw lg apa pun, mau lg kondisi apa pun kalo gw bs dan gw slalu brusaha bs untuk ada.
makin ksini gw ngerasa tmbh jauh. gw kyk dicuekin. kalo gw sms, dari smuanya, satupun ga ada yg bls. gw coba ngertiin itu dr dulu, tp ko selalu yaa. gw harus ngalah, harus bs nahan ego sm gengsi, tp capek.
gw juga ga blg gw ga salah. gw salah, gw kyk anak kecil, gw ga dewasa ngadepin smuanya, tp gmn? gw ngerasain nya gt. gw yg sekarang emg bukan gw. gw ga pnh bs secuek itu, gw ga pnh sejahat ini apalg sm mereka. gw jg harus bs nerima perubahan mereka yg entah kyk gmn, krn chae blg gt kmrn.
gw terima dede ato henri blg gw lebay dsb, ato yg lain jg. gw terima. krn sbnrnya gw syg kalian. maybe now, i must to be alone. penyendiri, pendiam, dan pemikir. skrg gw lbh kyk gt. cengeng jg. nangisin kgk mulu. hhahahaha. yasudalha...

*lov you all.

2hari ga dirumah

mlm minggu nginep tempat mbah nad and fam, maen sims3 eh nginep lg abis itu ke cempaka putih paginya, gr2 drumah mbah nad kosong. maennya dilanjutin di rumah tam.
sebenernya sii bukan mauu cerita itu tapi tentang gw sm anak KGK.
siang2 henri sms gw, blg gw sombong ga kliatan, yauda gw bls. kesel juga sih. dia yang bilang jangan sms dia lg, yauda gw turutin eh malah gt. malah marah gt sms nya, yauda. trus chae dhedhe sama isna ikut2an sms. gw tauu mereka lg ngumpul gr2 airin tdi pagi sms ke gw (buat anak gok), sedikit kaget, gw ga diajak. yauda, mungkin yang kayak waktu kls 2, kayak gt lagi, gw ga diajak. yauda.
trs ribut si sms. awalnya dari status gw katanya tapi kayaknya status yang berjenis kayak gitu udah sering gw taro deh, baru nyadar aja sekarang.
tauu2 bokap nelfon, nanyain alamat rumah tam. lha gw bingung lha? tapi ternyata temen gw mauu ksini. gw tambah bingung. temen gw yang mana?
tauu2 pas anang pulang dari rumah tam dan gw mauu beli es ama mas ama, gw liat udah ada kurnia ama chae ama brahma. gw beli es dulu. abis selesai ternyata gw dsuruh beli lagi. nah pas bikin kesel, pas gw pulang beli es si henri ama kurnia nanya "katanya beli es, mana es nya thie?" ahh taikk. ngeselin. emg dikira gw boong. ngeselin!!!!!!!!
abis naroh es nya didlm, gw minum es nya, ga lama gw keluar. ngomong sm kurnia. gw tanya ada apa ksini, katanya mauu nanya gw knp. yaa gw jelasin.
gw ga marah, gw cuma MUAK. kesabaran yang udah abis bis bis... gw capek. gw merasa ga dihargain, gw ngerasa gw ga ada artinya. trus buat apa gw masih bersikap kyk gw. gw juga mauu jadi kayak mereka yang cuek, semena2, ga mikirin perasaan gw khususnya. enak juga kayak mereka. cuek. tapi emg bukan gw bgtt. susah sii jadi kayak gt. tapi kan gw kayak gt sm kgk doang. sm temen2 dan shbt2 gw yang lain mah ga, gw ttp jadi gw yang gw. hhe.
udah ah, gw sambung ntar lagi. sekarang mauu ke lapis sm omick anang arrie ani. aseekk dah.

bersambungg.........